If i could turn back time

I would choose the road less traveled 

You cant just cure your mental tiredness by sleeping

As it stays....

It could be anything in the world.

This is just a random thought and I don't know whether have you ever question yourself the same.

Have you ever ask yourself how long will you able to go through life? Yes, this is a random thought but sometimes I feel it's time to think about it because times like this, you do not know whether are you at the right track or at the right state of mind.

Have you ever wonder how and what your future is going to be like? Truthfully speaking, thinking about it scares me away. Whenever I try not to think of it too makes the entire situation scary because we know we can't avoid this eventually.

People can say that I have a very depressing mind that makes me think about those things that certain people would not think of just yet because life, is meant to be full of surprises but times like this, have you ever felt so sick that you no longer want to seek or find out that "surprise" anymore that life has in store for us but never appear?

The fact that you waited long enough but all you've seen in life is mostly disappointment and you have no idea how to look at the bright side anymore. Waited long enough in other words is not sitting down, doing nothing while waiting for a miracle but to those who goes through so much challenges in life yet they have not seek any light in their life yet. I am still discovering. I know I am still young but we are all human, imperfect with flaws that we all would tend to feel very insecure about life - whilst hoping for the rainbow to appear somewhere but you feel like... everything is just a test and feels like you are not qualify enough to gain that rainbow in your life - if you know what I mean.

Have you ever? 

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And this?

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Zazang mian!

If you are a k drama lover, im sure you are very familiar with this dish, za zang mian

This noodle is commonly sell in korea and i have read recipe mentioning that they have been eating it since young because whenever they did something good, their parents would reward them with zazang mian. 

I always wanted to try this but I just couldnt find it anywhere, even the korean restaurant I always go doesnt sell this

I was just reading the recipe online yesterday and even tried to find the za zang sauce paste so i could try to cook it at home, but i failed to found it, as i went to AEON lol. ( I've forgotten Aeon is selling japanese products in prior) 

Just when i was walking out in disappointment, i bumped into this

 

I sapu-ed some yogurt soda and also aloe vera drinks. Wanted to get shin ramen but not enough of money

We have settled down for these 2.

Za zang instant noodle

Spicy cheese toppoki

I just love how the cheese melt 😍

Zazang instant noodle was so so, the potato is more than minced chicken, and a lil salty. But i like it. It would be better if the noodle is mian instead. 

Rating : 3.5/5

Toppoki too soft. Not too sure if the authentic one is supposed to be a lil cheesy or soft like this. 

Rating : 3.5/5

But im alright with both, since is cooked by korean promoter, they know how to make the sauce to taste just nice :)

Too bad they are not selling kimchi or kimchi soup (not the canned kimchi). I miss eating kimchi chiggae.

 

SOULed Out, Bangsar South.

I am back in action! It has been a pleasent day of pampering myself and buying belated Christmas presents for my close friends. 

Right after getting some gifts for my friends, I rushed down to this particular place as I had a date with my friend known as SOULed Out, I believe it is a mixed up cuisine restaurant/bar. it is located at the heart of Bangsar South, Nexus. I've heard about this place from one of my friend who lives in Hartamas as she did mentioned to me before there's one branch in Hartamas before Bangsar South so I believe it is probably one of the first branch in KL. 

Yeah, this is SOULed OUT, it is easy to spot the bar/restaurant because it is right at the end on your left and probably the only restaurant that takes up the space. Here's some of the pictures I captured last night:- 

See the corner right? That's the kitchen where the chef pass the food to the waiter/waitress to deliver food to the customers. 

In every restaurant, there sure is something inspirational for all of us to remember. 

And another one. 

Layout of the restaurant.

Christmas tree made of alcoholic beverages bottles. Cute isn't it? 

He decided to give me one of his best shots! (His pose... Hahahhaha) 

Welcoming the year of 2015! Oh yay! \^_^/ 

Here's the menu of this restaurant. Not bad:- 

Price? Pricy. Well, what do you expect from a high class looking place? Sigh. 

But hey, that doesn't mean it is a sin to try something new out! My friend and I ordered this Classic Mojito which cost us RM19 (Happy hour) which ends at 8pm. Original price is RM2x.

We were looking at the menu for quite some time because we didn't know what to order, too many to choose in different sections. To our surprise in the end, we decided to go for their Indian Food. 

This is what I ordered. Cost me RM22 and it is selected as one of the best aka recommended must try (well I saw the logo of a mouth which indicates it should be one of the best to try) i can either choose naan or rice but I choose naan because I love naan. 

To my surprise I thought it is going to taste like any other typical Indian food but heck this is probably the best Indian food ever I've tasted in my life! Portion is huge, a lot of small chicken meat covered with thick special sauce which is so special, that white colour thingy looks like some kind of mayonnaise with vegetable but somehow it tasted like Indian Yogurt with small cuts of vegetables, I like everything about it except that green peas at the side. -.- 

Both of our meal. Left is mine, the right side is my friend's picked which is fish. Instead of naan, she choose rice and rice tasted so good!! Fish is tender and the portion is so worth it for RM25. 

This is the Classic Mojito we ordered that cost us RM19. Comes with refreshing mint leaves and some other kind of special flavoring that I do not know what to describe it. It is definitely refreshing enough that the both of us shared this drink. Hey, it is good to try something new, right? 

The bill didn't turned out very nice for the both of us, we had to burnt our purses to pay for the service tax and GST since there were only both of us. Screw our lives. But good experience, great atmosphere, good for those who want to gather with their friends and family as they do have kids meal too :) quite cute though. 

Friendly staff, they are quite attentive and helpful too. 

Yes, they do have WIFI for those who wants to surf the net and update their friends via social network. 

Here's the address:- 

SOULed OUT

G11-12, Ground Floor, 

Nexus Bangsar South, 

No.7 Jalan Kerinchi 

59200 Kuala Lumpur.

Wondering how to get there? You can take a LRT to LRT Kerinchi and walk over the bridge to Nexus :) OR LRT Universiti, it is heading towards Pantai Hillpark. 

Brewyard Cafe, SS15, Subang Jaya

My friend came back from Australia so he decided to bring me to this cafe located in Subang Jaya. 

I would say that it is the only odd shoplot that holds on a vintage kind of feel that you know that it is already a hipster cafe in that row. Hahahaha. 

So here's the inside outlook of the cafe:- 

Check out the interior. It feels like I am dining in an indoor park (eg ; the stones and the walk through is already like one) I like the design. It seems really cosy and quiet too. No wonder I've seen a few students/ppl who work nearby settling down with their laptops and doing their work. It is spacious on the other side, this is only 25% of the cafe. I like the toilet too. (I KIDD)

Didn't manage to take the front part and the backyard because I became too excited and was looking forward for the food :D 

Friend ordered this pizza. It is quite small but tasty. Meant for one person meal only. It taste like cheese (IKR) *insert LOL emoticon with tears*

My friend's coffee. Just had a sip of the coffee and you know I am not really a fan of coffee cause certain coffees are pretty much bitter and would rather go for chocolate-coffee kind of thing (if that ever exists) LOL 

And this is what I had for lunch. Brewyard had this lunch set meal comes with one ice lemon tea. This costs me rm13. Fries with turkey ham wrapped. Fries is quite salty but the seasoning is pretty much unique, the wraps aren't so bad. After all it is turkey and this is probably my late Christmas meal (so much for not eating turkey on Christmas) 

Stayed there for almost 3-4 hours because I was busy playing Fun Run and chilling. Yeap, that explains how much I love that place and it is good for those who wants to chill, to have dessert and coffee over with their friends, to do their work in such environment like that. 

I apologize for not being able to take more pictures of this cafe because I was too excited. 

In case you are wondering whether this cafe provides wifi, yes wifi is available.

Here's the address:-

Brewyard Coffee

42, Jalan SS15/4,

47500 Subang Jaya,

Petaling Jaya,

Selangor

2014 x 2015

It is the 5th day of 2015. It doesn't seems like 2015, still living in the year 2014 instead because every year seems to be the same thing to me but just numbers changed every year now and then. 

How time flies it is already the year 2015 (though my mind constantly write the date ending with the year of 2014 instead of 2015. Still not used to it) I would say that genuienely the year 2014 has been one of the most craziest ride I've ever ride on. 

Both good and the bad. 

And I've learnt a lot from that. 

Since yesterday was the last day of 2014, here I am typing this out in an empty room with the lights off because I love reflecting this moment especially when it is dark (meh, just being lame and shit) hahahah. I believe today it is a brand new year for me to start on though I may face the same shit but different year kind of situation, I am indeed trying my best to reorganize my life and not bringing those shitty moments that happened years ago. More like I am making a change in my life. 

What I've learnt last year? To not rely on anyone. I've learnt this the hard way because I tend to trust people very easily and that so, people that I know gave me so much hope ended up getting myself disappointed with their lies and deceptions. I used to believe that I can be friends with anyone and not worrying about the ones that indeed destroy me emotionally and mentally because I tend to prioritize the wrong company, more like I am blind-folded in the dark and being dragged in the dark so that no one can save me when I need help. I've learnt the hard way cause I've met the ones that just use me up to their own good and then disappeared. One thing I know it is part of life that people come and go and also, I've learnt not to trust anyone because not everyone is your friend. (Don't worry, I never go beyond to the point when I've done something bad such as killing someone - ants are not included!) 

Eat more good food! Because food seems to be my source of happiness. Oh, and it mends broken hearts too. :) 

What is it like to keep a pet. I remembered that I've always wanted to have an unit full of cats and dogs. I realized after taking care of Ginger the cat and Bingo the hedgehog, it built my confident and love for animals even more that I am definitely sticking to the plan! They were family to me, more like still a family to me eventhough they are apart from me right now. These fluffy and spiky creature brought joy to me whenever I was down (pushing aside the responsibilities) but I indeed love them and treat them as family. It is sad that I cant keep them due to certain reasons why but I am glad that both of them have a better life with their new lovely owners. 

I've learnt how to stay strong and stand at my own feet. It is a part of learning process for me up to today and being strong is not easy either. We are human and get demotivated very easily. We can't stay happy for the rest of our lives unless we have a happy, glamorous life. Dealing with my own emotions and being positive is the key to my own serenity though sometimes (most of the time) it kills me so much I have to look at Pinterest quotes all the time to motivate me again lol (or chocolates, maybe hopping on random places and sitting on long journey rides) however, my backbones are definitely my sis, friends, petsis, - friends that have been there for me up to today and I am eternally grateful to have them (you know who you are) because without them, 2014 wouldn't be a good year, a year that I could think of something that makes me smile and enables me to fill up my jar of happiness (which I was supposed to open up with Yi sin yesterday)

It is okay to cry because you are just letting out. 

Let go of the past - because I have to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. If I can't change the things I can, I have to accept it and let go eventually. 

I discovered my true friends (I know I wrote this two years ago, but different situations =_=")  I've made a lot of new friends last year and most of them are simply amazing. Friends doesn't measure the number of years and days of how long you know that person. I observed and realized that a few longer ones that I've known has changed (people change, gotta accept that) and probably the ones that doesn't appreciate you at all. Woke up to reality and I'm beginning to realize a lot of things that some people are meant to let go. Harsh reality, but I can't keep the people that tend to destroy me eventhough they meant a lot (or the whole world) to me. It is probably the hardest to let go (my biggest weakness) but I know it is no point keeping it because it seems like I am trying so hard to bring out the positivity out of the ones that are not worth keeping and allow to hurt me over and over again. 

Also, YOLO (You Only Lived Once) whenever you can because I believe we only live once and we create our own rules anyway. Traveling and exposing to the world to experience so many different aspect in life and I believe there are more to come and I look forward to that. I enjoyed my YOLO trips and holidays with my YOLO-kaki's :D 

And I will never forget this - God. I realized I hardly go to Church like how I used to years ago due to my busy schedule and always working on weekends, my time for God seems to be decreasing from time to time. I've realized that whatever that I've done last year due to the struggles and being busy most of the time especially when I am at the state of growing up, I forgotten how to pray and getting closer to God. Though I have strong faith in God, it feels like it was not enough and I want to change that. That night, I dreamt of a light approaching me in the dark, spoke to me, "you are fearfully and wonderfully made, I know that fully well" I believe it is coming from the bible verse Psalm 139:14. It sounds familiar and I remembered while I was scrolling through Pinterest, I found quotes that I dreamt of was exactly the same sentence that the light spoken to me that night when I was feeling down. I know it was God. He watches over me from day and night everyday, 365 days a year. How I can feel his presence? Whenever I am out late and coming back home extremely late after work sometimes and have no choice but to walk back home in lonely roads and streetlights, getting lost at certain point of time especially when it was at night (while I was trying to find my way to the airport after a bus dropped me to one isolated area where stray dogs and lonely streetlights without any signboards around and have to find my way back to the airport by walking), a few unfortunate events that turned out to be fortunate enough that I am still alive and safe is because of God. I have so many things to confess and repent and I know that myself. Today is the first page of 2015 and I don't want to be how I was before. I choose to change and repent to be a better person. 

Lastly, choose happiness and dispose the negativity in your life because it is only YOU yourself that can make changes in your life. It is okay to fall  to the drain and make mistakes because from there we will learn. I learnt and I am just grateful for what that has been given to me. I may not be the luckiest person in the world but I am truly blessed to be alive today. 

What did I achieve/something positive in the year 2014? 

-  I owned two pets (one is a hedgehog and another one is a cat - fostered with my partner in crime) \^_^/

- I learn to be realistic (I used to think that I could do anything but Eversince then I stepped out to the real world, my perspective changed) and still hanging on it! 

- I found freedom and inner peace.

- travelled a lot compare to the year 2013 with friends. Oh and I travelled abroad too alone! Yayyyy!

- learn how to break the rules.

- met a lot of new ppl.

- gain experience in some industries.

- I learnt how to play two instruments! Oh yayyy 

- developed my love and interest for board games, my past time hobbies as well

- did my first tattoo!

- dyed my hair!

- getting lost in isolated places and odd time and managed to find a solution in every situation

- get to eat good food B-) 

- tried and drank alcoholic drinks

- stay single lol

Can't think of any though.

My resolution for this year? 

- achieve my goals and life as usual though this has been quite some time but I am gonna be really serious in achieving it

- save money to further my degree and do my degree. 

- save up to buy Taylor's guitar! 

- do second tattoo! (Maybe)

- be on the right track. 

- travel more often and getting lost out of nowhere 

- try more good food 

- be more open and not live with regrets 

- renew my faith in The Lord 

- stay closer with my close friends. (YASSSS)

- sleep early and not skip meals (I BREAK THE CODE ALREADY! Is okay I shall start next month instead) 

- plans that I planned wouldn't change unless change for the better 

- be a better person and stop cursing (bad habit kat) 

- learn to control temper and don't get angry easily.

- learn to forgive. 

- don't hold on grudges. 

- don't expect and just go with the flow.

- YOLO SWEG even more! 

- and not to forget, DONT LOSE MYSELF AND GIVE UP ON MYSELF. 

Okay I iz done! :)